Poem to a cockroach
I am not afraid of the obviously dangerous;
can appreciate the snake, or the spider.
But you, what purpose do you serve besides your own ugliness.
Last night I heard you whispering the soft
and unmistakable grating of your wings
like skin peeling, just for a moment, then disappearing.
In the morning I found your crisp and iridescent body.
I imagine you everywhere that is dark and unacceptable,
like an undeniable truth, like a haunt
across a grave, dragging your armor of indifference.
Turtles, hamsters, fish, paraqueets, rabbits, chick, hen, rooster and at last a dog. Since I was a little girl I’ve always felt passion towards animals. I used to go to my farm two weeks at the end of each year and also for any of my cousin’s birthdays. All the time I spent in my farm I was surrounded by animals and I loved it. My uncle and I share the same passion for animals, so we used to take long walks and he explained me every animal that came in our way, from the smallest bug to the biggest mammal. I can say that thanks to him I feel no fear to almost any animal, except for sharks and crocodiles. My mother never liked animals, the only kind of pet she allowed home were either at a tank or at a cage. Until one day when I was in 5th grade we did a project involving a rabbit. I bought it with a friend, but when I took him home my mother was so angry she kicked him out. Later that same day she found me petting my rabbit and crying; she felt compasion, she offered me a deal I could not reject. She said, and I remember clearly -”if you keep up your grades and behave well, i MIGHT think of giving you another type of pet at the end of the year.” The word might and end of the year meant nothing to me, and I immediately made research on what types of dogs were most recommended for children, where could I get them and how much would they cost. Finally on May 2002, we bought Chato, a beautiful Shih-Tzu that is still with us today!
Why do human beings do evil? Why do evil people sometimes prosper? Why does God allow innocent children to suffer? Everybody seems to have a wrong concept of God. He is indeed the almighty, miraculous and superior being. But the moment he died for us, he gave us freedom; freedom of speech and action. Most people live life according to their religion beliefs and parameters. The being they worship and their beliefs mark those parameters with evil and good. Human beings do evil for many reasons, neither justifies the means. Some may do evil because the status they are trapped in “forces” them to do evil, like rob to get food. The problem is that the first time is the hardest, so after they have done it once or twice they get used to it. People in our society need money to get by, sometimes the only way to get money for some people is robbing. Others do evil because they are trapped in drugs or other sustances that may cause them to act different than they would sober or clean. Others may do evil because they have mental problems, and some even become addicted to do evil, like kill, rape or kidnap. It is not that God allows people to do evil, it is simply that he gave us freedom to act. There is actually little he could do about it. And yes, you may think, then why does he protect some people and still allows evil things to happen to others? Again it is not that he protects just “some” people, but maybe he gives priority to those who need it most, or those closest to religion. After all he is the only one that knows our destiny and he makes no mistakes. Everything that happens to us, every decision we make and any event that comes in our way are tests God send us that will bring us a step closer to our final destination. Everyone was born with a task in life, innocent children were brought that way for reasons that go beyond us. It is neither their fault nor God’s fault.
If you could cry out against an evil of our day -and get people to listen-, which social problem would you choose? Why would you choose it? If I could choose any topic of evil of our day I would choose murder and violence. I would choose it because it is one of the most unfortunately popular subjects today. There are always news on the radio, newspaper and TV about violence in Guatemala. If I could get to people about something it would definitely be this.
What happens to anger that is allowed to grow and fester, anger that is nurtured with our own deceit? It is never good to let anger grow inside of us, mostly because we tend to react different and impulsive when we are angry. When too many emotions are kept inside (especially anger, sadness, etc) we reach a moment we cannot keep anything else, so then we burst, some into tears, some towards someone else and so on. Most of the times anger that is nurtured with our own deceit just grows and grows until it becomes dangerous, feeling hate is not good, and when too many anger is allowed to grow there is a moment we start feeling hate towards anything that remind you what started it in the first place.
What does confession mean to you? What purpose does confession have for the teller and listener? Is a listener even necessary? Why do you think the act of confession plays such an important part in law and religion? Confession is telling someone your most embarrasing and deceitful moments to heal. The teller feels relief when confessed and maybe even fear, the listener may be shocked (depending on the confession) or comprehensive and help the teller. To me a listener is definitely necessary because most of the times the teller needs orientation if he or she has harmed someone or something else. Confession plays such an important role in law because it is necessary to be 100% sure if the defendant is in fact guilty. Meanwhile in church, confession is important because the only ones, besides God, who have the power to forgive your sins are “padres”.
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